Wednesday, May 11, 2011
My word for the day: myriad. In the pieces i posted yesterday, i used it 3 times, twice in one essay. There it became a bridge between two ideas. My writings will be myriad as well as errant.
With so many things to write about, I become almost frozen in the face of all the choices. It's similar to the bi-polar/anxietal immobilization, but without the consequences. If i do not write here, for 10 minutes, there is no window of opportunity that i am missing. You may say what if that window is longer than 10 minutes? My experience has been that the window, if i can get out of it will only last that long. And if it is longer, there are past writings - my own and that of others, should i feel the need to post *now*.
Even now, with all the ideas and words and sentences running amok in my head, I find this blog to be truly exciting. And i will not bemoan the time where i refused for reasons I can no longer remember. I am simply going to write. I can edit it all later..... I can even delete it all entirely. But i think i will not.
Part of my illness has led to me destroy my art - words, art, objects - in the past. No use crying about it, and perhaps i will one day be able to re-create some of it. And if not…there will be a limitless supply of words to arrange, colors to apply, and objects to shape into something better.
Writers often wonder will they be published, will they be read. And while i would never want to see books disappear, here, on the net, there is so much more opportunity to be seen. If even one person finds me, and reads what I have said, I am a success.
I have also invented a word here today – anxietal. Perhaps one day it will be in a dictionary. I think it should be, so feel free to use it, as it describes what it suggests, and we will be part of the growing of language. Talk about exciting!